Training and Motivation
I have been trying to write my next blog for over a week now but my mood and feelings are changing daily so every time I come to write the tone and emotion of my writing changes, which means I have to start afresh each time and I never seem to make any progress.
In a short amount of time I have had to accept that I wont be able to compete in 5 international competitions and I had to cancel my 7 week trip to the states. I have also been dealing with the annoyance of being on crutches, needing help to do the simplest of things like getting a glass of water.
I began to train very soon after returning home from Switzerland to try and take my mind off things and give myself a focus. To being with training was fun and gave me something to do. Although it wasn’t long before I realised how gutted I was about how my plans for the rest of the year had been destroyed. When I first broke my leg everyone had an unusual amount of optimism about my recovery. I was told I would be walking within 2 weeks of breaking it, fully healed in 4 weeks and back climbing. I wasn’t so sure but the doctors seemed so positive. My weekly trips to The University College Hospital London have revealed a different recovery timescale and a much more realistic one. Bones take 4 to 6 weeks to heal. I am now in my 4th week of recovery and my last x-ray showed my bone was still broken and I am still crutch bound with no weight allowed on the leg.
I was not so optimistic about the speedy recovery. But I must have had a little hope because not being able to walk this week ended any possibility of being back in time for The World Championships in Paris next month and this realisation was pretty devastating.
After this my psyche levels were not so high and motivation was lacking! Dealing with injury isn’t easy but I am really lucky that I can still train. Training over the past weeks has been interesting but motivation has not always been easy to find. I went from being psyched, having something to do and thinking that I had accepted the changes to my plans, to thinking what’s the point? When I came back from Switzerland I knew motivation and positivity could only get me so far and I wanted to make the most of the situation. I needed a coach to help me maintain, make gains and fix up my shoulder whilst I was out. I can’t thank Mark enough for taking me on and putting up with my grumpy days, demotivated moments and my moaning and whining!
I never fully realised before but I need goals, aims, ambitions, something to focus on that makes training worth it. With all my goals for the year seemingly impossible I didn’t really feel like training. Luckily, with my mood constantly changing this feeling didn’t last too long. I have managed to write new goals and figure out a new plan for the rest of the year to give me a reason to train, a reason to get psyched.
On Friday I will be heading to Munich where the last round of the World Cup Series will take place. I am currently in second place overall. I am excited about my new plans for the rest of the year and I cant wait to be climbing again and focusing on my new goals but I think watching this competition is going to be hard. I had really been looking forward to competing here and although I have had a few weeks to get over the fact that I can’t, I still don’t think it will be easy.
Back to training though, I am now really psyched again. I know what I want to do and I am really looking forward to getting my climbing shoes back on. I even have a hole in my hand from training for the first time in years! It’s good to have a structure and someone to push me. I am determined to come back to climbing stronger and fitter. I didn’t choose to have this time off but I can make the most of it! I can still not put any weight on my leg and it still hurts a bit but I am hoping that I can start to put weight on it soon.
Thanks to Dan Knight for the pictures 🙂
I have to say a big thank you to the GB Team physio Rick Webber who organised my x-rays and appointments in London. I also need to thank Rebecca Dent the GB Team nutritionist who has helped me understand what I need to be eating and when to ensure I am getting enough food to heal and recover from training too.
Thanks to BEASTMAKER again!